RP:letspleasuretogether – Page 8

Allen shook his head, closing his eyes as his hand was pulled away. He felt awful for worrying Lavi, and a part of him felt selfish for breaking down like this in his presence. This couldn’t wait until I was alone…?

“No, it didn’t hurt. I’m just…” He didn’t know how to explain, not without telling Lavi what he was actually crying about. And he couldn’t do that, he couldn’t make Lavi feel obligated to be in some sort of relationship with him.

He took a few deep breaths, trying to calm himself enough to at least pretend he was fine.

“Im sorry… I don’t know what came over me.” he said, “I just felt a little emotional, I guess.” He forced out a laugh, hoping to lighten the mood.

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Allen felt Lavi start to move, and didn’t have enough time to wipe his tears away before Lavi noticed. He covered his eyes with a hand, trying to calm himself down enough to regain control.

“I’m f-fine.” he said, and realized that his voice sounded anything but. “I… I’m just…” he couldn’t think of a good excuse, not with his emotions making his chest burn, making it hard to breath.

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Allen nodded, letting out the breath he hadn’t even been aware he was holding. He knew that they needed to talk about what happened… what it meant, where they go from there… but for now he was content to just lay here under Lavi. He felt wanted, he felt so safe here, and he found himself pulling Lavi even closer.

He had told himself that he would be okay if Lavi turned away after this and tried to act like nothing happened. But now… he could certainly hide his feelings if Lavi wanted to brush this off, he could bury them so Lavi would never know how much it hurt. He knew it would hurt… He wondered when his feelings for Lavi had grown to this point, it certainly was not just because of the sex. He had honestly been all too willing to kiss Lavi… Now that he knew, he realized that he had loved Lavi for a while, even before he had thought Lavi died in the Ark.

But Lavi couldn’t possibly feel the same… Allen couldn’t imagine how Lavi would be in love with him.

He didn’t realize he was crying until he felt tears wetting his cheeks. He tried to be discreet about turning his head away to wipe the tears away before Lavi noticed. Stupid, stupid. He cursed at himself as he tried to regain control of himself, he hadn’t even realized that he had let his guard down.

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As the silence stretched on, Allen started getting nervous. He did tell Lavi that he wouldn’t regret what happened if Lavi walked away afterwards, but he would still hurt. Lavi had never been too forthcoming about what being a Bookman really meant, but from their battle with Road on the Ark, Allen had gotten the impression that Bookmen weren’t allowed to care about others. And if Lavi would just brush this off as a one-time deal and walk away afterwards… He had been rejected by others thousands of times, he was good at pretending it didn’t bother him anymore. But if Lavi rejected him, after all they’ve been through, and after what just happened… Allen knew it would hurt.

“…Lavi?” Allen asked in a whisper, hoping that he was just being silly, hoping that the silence was merely due to exhaustion.

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As Allen tried to catch his breath, he felt a warmth inside of him, and a few moments later Lavi rested his head on Allen’s shoulder. Allen drew Lavi closer with shaking hands, and buried his head in Lavi’s neck as well. He felt warm and comfortable and didn’t want Lavi to get off of him quite yet.

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Allen gasped as Lavi changed his angle, hitting that spot inside him over and over. He couldn’t hold back his loud cries, couldn’t remember why he should be quieter. It felt so good, he didn’t want it to end, but when Lavi reached between them to grip him, he lost the last bit of control. With a few well placed thrusts, Allens body tensed, and he came with a loud cry.

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Allen whimpered as Lavi’s lips trailed up his neck, the change of pace and angle made him shake as Lavi’s lips met his in a kiss. He wrapped his right arm around Lavi’s neck, pulling him even closer while his left gripped the train seat below him. He was losing all ability to think, the only thing that mattered to him right now was Lavi on top of him, inside him, kissing him fiercely enough that he could barely catch a breath. Breathless moans spilled into Lavi’s mouth, he knew he couldn’t last much longer. Allen’s body shook and squirmed underneath him. Lavi was still holding his legs, so he couldn’t move much, but he did his best to shift his hips with Lavi’s. Suddenly Lavi hit something inside him, and he saw stars. He gave a loud cry, muffled by Lavi’s kisses, and had to break the kiss to regain his breath.

“Ah…Lavi! Please…” he could barely gather himself enough to speak, and tried to breath and angle his hips so Lavi would hit that spot in him again.

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Allen couldnt help but whimper at Lavi’s words, and clamped a hand over his mouth to stifle louder cries. The sight of Lavi on top of him, staring at him with those heated eyes, both embarrassed and aroused him.

“I need more…” He couldn’t think straight, didn’t even know exactly what he wanted Lavi to do, but he knew that the current pace was not enough. “Ngh… faster…”

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Allen did his best to stay relaxed and focus on the kiss as Lavi entered him slowly. Lavi felt much larger than two fingers, and while it wasn’t exactly painful, it was uncomfortable. Before he could decide if he should ask Lavi to wait, he started moving.

As Lavi pressed into him again and again, he gasped and gripped the cloth underneath him. The feeling of being filled was quickly changing from uncomfortable to pleasurable, and Allen felt like his breath was taken away with every small thrust of Lavi’s hips into his.

“Lavi…” Allen moaned quietly, trying to push his hips up to meet Lavi’s, but the position Lavi held him made him unable to do much more than squirm. “Please… I need…”

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Allen let out a frustrated groan as Lavi pulled his hand away. He stayed still as Lavi pulled off his pants, trying to control his breathing. As Lavi positioned himself, his heart sped up a bit, though he was not sure if it was in anticipation, or nervousness. He forced his body to relax, wrapping his arms around Lavi.

“Yes… please… don’t stop.”