Tag: RP:kusabi-tan

“You could have died!” (Lavi&Allen? Hope you’re okay with me sending this! OTL)

ruzuki:

“Yea, but I didn’t. And neither did you, which is what counts.“ (Yes, of course! You’re playing Lavi?)

kusabi-tan:

Lavi was surprised to hear that Allen had a similar tale, recounting what had happened at the Ark when Lavi’s hammer had broken. It occurred to him that he never told him of how he challenged Tyki afterwards in Edo and gotten his ass kicked. Hell, he’d probably be dead if the Noah hadn’t been playing with him.

Allen suggested that it was selfish—and Lavi agreed. It was selfish of Allen to throw himself into danger to protect him so he wouldn’t have to feel that way. It was selfish of him to criticize him for it because at the end of the day, they wanted the same thing: The other’s safety.

The gentle upward curve of his lips told him—and Allen—that the anger pulsing through his body was rapidly fading. “Yeah well, ya kinda did save me, ‘Sprout—now and then.”

He reached around, clapped a hand on his friend’s back and motioned for him to start walking, to head back towards the inn they were staying at until this mission reached completion. Upset or not, he’d make going over Allen’s cuts and scratches his priority now, making sure none were too deep, keeping them clean.

“Ya know, I challenged Curly after I thought he killed you,” Lavi said, words punctuated by a soft laugh meant to ward away the tension between them. “He kicked my ass.”

Allen followed Lavi with a small smile.

“I would say that was really stupid, because it was, but I attacked the Earl when I thought you had died. Cross saved me from falling myself, actually. Because he needed me to get out, of course, but if he hadn’t… you all would have died there…” Now that he thought about it, his behavior did seem incredibly reckless, but it wasn’t like he had known that he could control the Ark at the time.

“You could have died!” (Lavi&Allen? Hope you’re okay with me sending this! OTL)

kusabi-tan:

ruzuki:

“Yea, but I didn’t. And neither did you, which is what counts.“ (Yes, of course! You’re playing Lavi?)

“Yeah, but—” He bit his lip, breaking off his words when he realized the words that lay on the tip of his tongue, just a split second from being put out on the open. But did you ever think about how I would if something had happened to you?

Lavi took a deep breath, trying to choke down his partially misplaced anger and will away the image of Allen lying in that bamboo thicket that wormed its way to the surface. He remembered the lone playing card that lay where Allen should have and the gruesome tale of what happened there, woven by the boy’s blood splattered across the ground.

Those few hours spent thinking he was dead had been followed by days of absolute certainty that Allen would never return to fight alongside any of them. And all Lavi could do was stare at the damn card, like something about it kept them connected. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt so hollow, empty, transparent.

“I don’t wanna feel that way again.”

… Shit. Had he said that out loud?

It only took Allen a moment to realize what Lavi meant.

“I… I’m sorry… but I dont want to feel that way either… like I could have done something to prevent it… in the Ark, when you fell… I could have saved you, I could have used Clown Belt to grab you, but I froze.” his voice was getting choked up just thinking about what had happened, how he had felt at that time, thinking that Lavi was dead because he hadn’t reacted fast enough.

“Maybe its selfish… but I dont want to feel that way ever again. That you had died in front of me when I could have prevented it…”

He realized that he had never told Lavi what happened after he had fallen. How Allen attacked the Earl with no regard to his own safety, how the only reason he hadn’t fallen himself was because Cross stopped him. Allen had almost wanted to fall.

“You could have died!” (Lavi&Allen? Hope you’re okay with me sending this! OTL)

kusabi-tan:

ruzuki:

“Yea, but I didn’t. And neither did you, which is what counts.“ (Yes, of course! You’re playing Lavi?)

“It’s not!” Lavi bit out, hands curling into fists tight enough to bleed the color from his knuckles. His life mattered. Allen’s life mattered—to him, at the very least—even if the younger boy was too much of a martyr to understand that and Lavi had dedicated too much of his own life to succeeding the old panda to make him. “Do you have to be so reckless all the damn time?!”

(Yay~ And of course~)

“There wasn’t any other way, Lavi! I couldn’t just let that Akuma hit you!” He understood why Lavi was mad, but he at least wanted Lavi to understand why he had jumped into that Akuma attack. Allen had gotten some nasty cuts and bruises, but the attack would have likely taken Lavi’s life.

“I had a higher chance of survival, Lavi… I can survive the virus, and Crown Clown can block attacks, and even if I got badly hurt, my innocence has patched me up before…”