no one cares ruzu – Page 26

Much happier with this version…

Another edit for my sideblog project…

I am VERY happy with how this turned out tbh XD

Is there anyone who wants to buy the Jump SQ Crown magazine for DGM chapter 219, but cant purchase it from the Japan Amazon because they dont have a credit card?

I was thinking of buying a few extra, and I can put them up on ebay for people who only have a paypal. It would be pretty cheap, its only $13 on Amazon so I just would have to add in how much it would be for me to ship it.

I know at least one person wants this, so I figured Id ask and see if anyone else wants this too so I could buy a few at once. I dont want to buy too many either, since they would just collect dust at my house, so I would like to just buy an exact amount, and have a list of people that I know will purchase from me.

Wanted a new image for a side blog project Im making for myself… so I fiddled with this for 15m or so. Doesn’t look as nice as I hoped, but its good enough for now. I can work on blending it better later. =.= Wanted to try to give it like… a starry night theme? With the stars and Allen glowing…?

I dont think this was spoiler art, but if it should be taken down just yell at me. >.>;

Note/Apology for today

Sorry for anyone annoyed by my …however to describe what today was. I try to keep negative and personal things off my blog, but I don’t have anywhere that I can really vent about things so sometimes it ends up here. That’s not an excuse for me to make my own personal insecurities everyone else’s problem, just an explanation of why I post stuff like that sometimes…

I had meant to try to use this as a personal blog as well as a fandom/rp one, but I know a lot of you only follow me for the DGM related stuff.

Just a reminder if you want to block any posts that I put personal comments on you can block my ‘#no one cares ruzu’ tag. That should limit what you see to mostly RP or fandom things.

Ill do my best to keep my feelings separate from my blog in the future. This might have to mean that I just delete posts if someone is annoyed by it without actually engaging with the person. So if you send me a comment or an ask, and find I did not answer but rather just deleted the offending post, that would be because I want to avoid any further conflict about it.

blah blah you probably should stop reading here because its just lame trash I shouldnt have wasted a half an hour even bothering to type its just literal garbage from my head and I probably should edit it a bit to make it relevant at all but its 11:30 now I need to go calm down and try to sleep

If you are annoyed by something I said or reblogged, you might want to tell me on anon. Because I do have an issue with feeling ~~like my safety is seriously~~ threatened if there is even a minor conflict… on anon, I will just remember to not say/reblog/do that thing anymore. If you tell me off anon, I will remember to not do that thing, but it is also very likely that I am going to think you are angry with/hate me for a very long time no matter what you say otherwise. I know its not logical but because of things, this is disordered thinking that I have not been able to correct yet, and even if I force myself to do actions against that thinking, such as talking to a person, it gives me really bad anxiety or panic attacks.

This doesn’t mean I will actively ignore the person… but more of a thing where I just wont initiate anything with them but I will ~~make an effort to~~ respond if they initiate… so more like just avoidance? Or, I could actually just literally forget who you are. Its happened to me several times now… I could remember the conflict but cant remember the person it was with ~~and~~ ~~so I am a bit anxious talking to anyone who I feel like might have been that person~~

Kind of unrelated to the issue currently, but if you find something I post annoying/offensive somehow, its very likely that I don’t actually realize it may be found annoying/offensive. I am still learning! There are a lot of things I have learned since I came to tumblr, and a lot of it is stuff I should have learned years ago ~~if my default setting to socialization hadn’t been ‘escape’~~… I know ignorance is no excuse, but I would rather someone just explain what was wrong instead of attack me for it.

Ok I okay enough to come back on here.

Ill do my best to reply to stuff I owe tomorrow and Friday… and if you don’t want to RP anymore with me you can just not answer my reply, or block me or whatever.

Probably pissed a lot of people off and have a whole new list of people who hate me now… but I guess it was inevitable I messed something up for myself in this fandom.

corflammarum replied to your post: corflammarum
replied to your post “No…

You’re not horrible, it’s just that with what the creator has said everyone else has stopped and is deleting it and there are those who do not wish to be spoiled by any part of it

im sorry it took so long for me to even see the message i should have checked my phone or something but i deleted everything and i deleted my theory too

corflammarum
replied to your post “No it’s not meant as an attack. Reblogging in my opinion is the same…”

No it needs to stop here to and a lot of you arent even tagging it as spoliers being disrespectful to the creator who asked you to stop and your fellow fans

im sorry I did try to be careful and not post anything that had any obvious spoilers that were not under a readmore and I made sure to tag stuff that I wrote that contained it ill just delete the other things

Im actually getting really worked up trying to process what happened and what it could mean…

~~wtf anxiety go away leave me alone you have no reason to be here~~

Dat delivery date… I chose free shipping too! Maybe it’s because I have prime on my american account?
This totaled to less than $13