Tag: no one cares ruzu

Ugh my birthday has come again

Gonna finally say it… I hate my birthday. ok?

It was always a day I was reminded how much my family hates me, and how much I hate myself. I tried for a few years to plan my own parties to ‘make better feelings about it’, but no one would even come. So now its also a day when I remember how little I matter to others.

Now Im turning 26… Its kind of funny. I remember that when I was 16, I swore to myself that I would die before I turned 26.

Now its finally come, and its not that I have anything to live for. Its just stupid obligations that are stopping me. Dumb little stuff, like… I made plans to meet up with someone Wednesday. And I didnt teach my coworker how to run that report yet. And theres no one I can trust with my cat… Stupid obligations to other people (or animals) because other people always matter more to me than myself.

I didnt even try to do anything this year, I learned my lesson from the last few years that I would get even more depressed when it failed. Didnt even have spare money to buy myself something and throw a pity party.

So yea, my birthday is basically just a rude reminder that I spent another year being a stupid waste of space that cant even have the decency to die faster.

weirdmageddon:

weirdmageddon:

weirdmageddon:

who remembers that old youtube series where those two witty lab partners put literally anything into a microwave to see what would happen

“here at the laboratory, safety is our number one concern. that’s why we hide behind this tinfoil shield to protect our nuts because nobody likes roasted nuts”

holy fucking shit wait

I fking loved that youtube channel omg
The car airbag episode was the best. Dont think they ever topped that.

Do you ever plan on growing up? Or at least losing weight? Props to you for still taking pics with Jason, I wouldn’t want to if I was that overweight… Memory ruined you know? Plus I think it’s SO FUNNY you actually thought people would want to DATE you after your lil cipher hunt part. Thanks for the laugh on that- you don’t date cause you’re not interested, riiiiiight… That’s totally why… Ha, well… That’s all I wanted to say.

A) Why should I ‘grow up’? I have to be an adult with a job and a life the rest of the time, I can have fun once in a while.

B) I have already made a lot of progress on weight loss actually, and continue to work on it. Why should my weight ruin your memory? It was my picture.

C) I’m Ace and Aro. That means I have a lack of interest in sexual activities, and in romantic relationships. So, I really am not interested in dating anyone. I attempted it for a while, but its just not for me.
I want that to be clear with everyone up front, because I have had people become interested in the past, and I know how the internet gets sometimes. Best to stop anything before it has a chance to start.

Side note, how brave of you to send this on anon. I bet your the same person to send hate to Seashell, too. But I know this isn’t really about my appearance, my weight, my life. This is about your jealousy. So you feel the need to tear down others who participated, in any way you can. I’m just the easiest target. If I was a perfect model, you would find something else to pick at, no doubt.

So maybe the one who needs to grow up, is yourself.

I had almost done this when I first started getting really into Gravity Falls, and decided instead to create a side blog instead for that fandom to keep this blog ‘mostly dgm’ but…

I think I actually need to make this blog officially not ‘mostly dgm’ now, and at least make it ‘mostly dgm and gf’, because the name ‘ruzuki’ is associated so much with the Gravity Falls fandom now since I had used it on my periscope when I created one for the sole purpose of watching Jason Ritter and Ariel hunt rocks during USB clue phase lol

thesnadger:

thesnadger:

Is it weird to draw fanart of a stranger on the internet? Who cares I’m doing it.

Update: I did it.

May has shorts and determination! (Note: shorts still unconfirmed.)

omg @thesnadger did fanart of me there is fanart of me now I am literally hyperventilating and dying

I didnt have shorts but this is ok, I feel like the clothes in this mirror how Dipper dressed lol (I would totally have worn a Bill shirt if I had one)

(Update to my non Gravity Falls fandom followers: The Piedmont Park clue of the #CiperHunt was like an hour and a half from where I lived, so I went for it and drove there, and I managed to get there before the group found the clue and I think I am like, fandom famous now? I wasnt the one who actually found the key tho, I just was the one livestreaming it… and I volunteered to drive down to LA since there was a key to open a PO Box)