me lol – May's Blog

anxiety: everyone hates u
me: idk i dont think that-
anxiety: everyone hates u and ur mad ugly
me: damn u right

me: i have sad feelings. maybe i will tel..
my (conditioned) brain: MANIPULATION. YOU MANIPULATOR. TRYING TO MANIPULATE. YOU. THE MANIPULATOR. ALWAYS THE MANIPULATION. MANIPULATOR SUPREME. STOP YOUR MANIPULATION,
me: just one person
brain: MANIPULATIVE MONSTER. YOU ARE.

person: Wow you’re really good at this one thing!
Me: You are mistaken. I am not. but what I AM good at is thoroughly bullshitting this thing to make it SEEM like I’m good at it. That’s important.

opo-opos:

lanternowl:

I love being a healer.

But I would not recommend giving me a mic in battle.

embersign

lavisheart:

good morning i love allen walker

me: its okay
anxiety: you did something wrong
me: what? no…. it’s fine?
anxiety: is it?
me: uh, I… I don’t know, is it?
anxiety: no

cobalt-borealis:

getting really upset and making a series of emotional posts then later deleting them

oddness:

things i’m good at:

not answering texts/chats

getting my hopes up

daydreaming

being awkward

pissing people off

sleeping

me: yeah im alright i look pretty cute today
anxiety:
me: alright but at least i have this one skill people like me for
anxiety:
me: my friends like me?
anxiety:
me: im going to bed to stare at the ceiling and think over all my failings
anxiety: nice