The look on Allen’s face sobered Lavi quick enough, as well as the half step back the younger boy took to distance himself. Even if Lavi wasn’t angry at Allen, he was still pissed off – and unfortunately, Allen was the only one who could listen to his frustrations at the moment. He felt horrible for making Allen nervous even for a second. Though, how he could look the least bit intimidating with fluffy, white rabbit ears was beyond him.
Then, Lavi remembered that Allen didn’t exactly want to see or talk to him at the moment either. He sighed heavily, pinching the bridge of his nose. “You know what, Allen? Forget it. Do what you want while we’re stuck in here. I don’t care. It’s not like you want to talk to me anyway.” Like a petulant child, Lavi turned away and walked over to the abandoned bed in the corner of the room. Not caring about the dust, he flopped back on the mattress and stared up at the stone ceiling.
Ouch. His heart hurt from Lavi’s accusation. Allen knew Lavi would likely be upset at him, but he hadn’t meant for the other to feel hurt… though now, he wondered why he hadn’t realized that would happen. He didn’t move as Lavi walked away, staring at his feet as he tried to think of a way to fix the mess he had made of their friendship.
“That’s not… I didn’t…” He tried to think of a way to explain himself. “It’s not that I didn’t want to talk to you.” He fought to keep his voice steady, the stress making it hard to speak. If Lavi knew that Allen had feelings towards him…
He felt so stupid, he should have just let Lavi talk to him weeks ago. Lavi could make it clear he didn’t want what happened to mean anything, and they could keep on going as friends. Now, Allen didn’t know how to justify his avoidance without damaging their friendship.
“I was scared…” He hoped Lavi would just leave it at that… it was vague enough to be true, but Lavi would likely interpret it as being ‘scared of it changing their friendship’ or something, rather than ‘scared of rejection’.
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