areyouokaypanda:

stylistic-innocence:

Sometimes I think about the fact that two of Howard Link’s childhood friends are dead, and the other three are now controlled by the Millennium Earl and the Noah. 

Then I think about how he’ll probably have to fight them, because Hoshino is cruel like that.

Then I cry.

#howard link#d gray man#tewaku#madarao#tokusa#third exorcists#and you know link is blaming himself for everything#bc the third exorcist project wouldn’t have even happened#if he hadn’t taken that piece of the egg under rouvelier’s orders#but link#you were just following orders#you’re a soldier#it’s not your fault#i sense much angst in the future

why do you do this to me

He was a soldier following orders, but that excuses nothing in his eyes. It’s still a decision he made, something he chose to go through with without questioning his superior’s decisions, and so it’s something he has to live with. He’s not a man who passes blame or makes excuses. Continuing on while knowing that the Thirds were taken/killed because of something begun (at least physically) by his hands is the penance he’ll serve. Seeing all of this through to the end, no matter what the cost to himself, is just a part of the consequences he’ll make himself weather.