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veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

Lavi understood perfectly and squeezed back. It was obvious as to what Allen was trying to say, causing the redhead to smile and kick his feet a bit more. Things just kept getting better and better.

Before the two had any time to do anything further, the door opened and Lenalee walked in. Allen stiffened a bit, wondering if Lavi wanted to let go of his hand before she noticed, but she began talking as if nothing was odd.

“There you two are! Ive been looking for you everywhere! Komui wants to see you both.”

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

As soon as the blush erupted on the white haired male’s cheeks Lavi couldn’t help but laugh. It was pretty obvious that his friend and potential love interest had finally gotten the hint. “Yes Allen, this is exactly what you think it is.”

“Oh.“ Allen said softly, blush darkening as he looked at his feet. He didn’t know what to say, so he tightened his grip on Lavis hand, hoping Lavi would understand that.

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veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“Do you get it yet Sprout or do I have to spell it out for you?” Lavi waited to ask the question for many minutes but it didn’t seem like the white haired male had any idea of what was going on. He was so cute like that sometimes that it made the redhead smile.

“Think about this.” He said, raising their conjoined hands so Allen could see them directly.

Allen stared at their hands for a few moments, wondering what Lavi meant. Did he mean something special by holding his hand? Allen tried to think of what it could mean. He had held hands with others before, but it usually had a clear reason, such as leading someone through a crowd. But to just sit together and hold hands for no real reason… he could only think of couples he would see around town. Wait… he cant mean it that way, right?

Allen could feel his cheeks heat up at the thought, and his heart pounded as he met Lavi’s eyes.

“Umm…” He couldn’t think of what to say, if he was wrong he didn’t want to mess up their friendship.

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veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“You just need to relax and let things happen Allen. Thinking too hard about stuff doesn’t help solve it.” It didn’t take long for the white haired male to take Lavi’s hand, making him grin a bit. Instead of getting up like normal the redhead just sat there, kicking his feet in the air like he often did when comfortable. He decided that he was going to wait for Allen to say something rather than explain what he was doing. It was a test to see what the younger male would say.

Allen was confused when Lavi made no movement to get up, or do anything else besides hold his hand. Though, he realized he didn’t really mind. Even though Lavi seemed casual about holding his hand, Allen felt happy inside for some reason, and he grinned back at Lavi.

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“You’re thinking way too much about this Allen.” Lavi laughed and slid a hand over towards his white haired companion, palm facing up in an inviting manor. He had seen the small blush and was just going on a hunch to see if he was right. Whether Allen took his hand or declined would answer the question he asked himself.

Allen laughed with Lavi. “Yea, I probably am.” He really was, he just needed to act the same as he used to, right?

Lavi held out his hand, and Allen stared for a moment, not sure what he intended. He had done the same thing when he pulled Allen up onto the table to join him, maybe he wanted Allen to go somewhere with him? But even though he wasn’t sure what Lavi intended, Allen reached out and took his hand anyways.

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“If it’s hard to put words to feelings than try it in some other way. I find that hand gestures, writing, and actions work fabulously for things such as that.” He said with a small laugh, trying to keep the light hearted atmosphere present. It often worked in his favor when he was trying to keep the white haired male comfortable.

Allen did his best to resist thinking too hard about other ways to show his feelings, and hoped he wasn’t blushing.

“Hmmm…” he tried to think of some way to respond that wouldn’t give away what he was really feeling. From what he already said, maybe he could play it off as just wanting to be closer friends?

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veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“You don’t seem convinced Allen, and to be honest neither am I. Care to tell me what’s really got you feeling like that?” He smiled calmly, hoping the other would feel comfortable with his silent encouragement. “I know you better than to believe those trained expressions that I can mirror.”

He really should have known Lavi would notice that he was hiding something. Allen’s masks were good enough to fool most people, but they weren’t perfect. Lavi, with his photographic memory, probably had been able to spot the small differences. A part of him was happy that Lavi could tell, but he was also scared. It would be hard to hide anything from Lavi… And Allen didn’t think it would end well if Lavi learned of his feelings. At best, he would pretend nothing changed, but at worse he might distance himself form Allen…

Even if Lavi could tell when his expressions were fake, as long as fake could hide what he really felt, it would be good enough.

“Well… this is all rather sudden. And its hard to put words to feelings. I rarely have to think about why I felt certain ways.” he said in a lighthearted tone, keeping a grin on his face. It was all still true, and he hoped Lavi would just accept it. But he knew Lavi was nothing if not curious, a part of his job was to pry information from people, after all…

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

veridiansoulwrites:

“In this line of work anyone could get hurt Allen. Life isn’t fulfilling if you worry about things like that you know? You need to stop thinking about that.” He mumbled, looking over to stare at the white haired boy. Lavi saw a piece of hair out of place and leaned over to brush the hair behind his ear. He smiled briefly and brought his hand back to give Allen space again.

The more his friend spoke the more his own smile fell. Allen looked rather confused himself but it just got worse from there. “Want what?” Lavi asked with a small eagerness in his voice as he put a hand to Allen’s shoulder when he turned away. There was something more to this and he could clearly see it. The answer he received didn’t line up.

“But you are more to me than ink on paper…” He mumbled, dropping his hand a little to grip Allen’s arm.

Allen carefully controlled his expression and smiled at Lavi.

“Yea, I know… you did burn yourself up quite a bit to save us, then.” he said. “I guess its just a feeling that lingered from what happened.”

Allen tried to act as if Lavi’s touch wasn’t affecting him as it drifted from his hair, to his shoulder, and down his arm. Lavi casually touched him all the time, and for some reason only now was Allen really noticing it.

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

veridiansoulwrites:

Lavi waited patiently for the answer, knowing that it was something difficult to answer right out of the blue like that. He didn’t expect to have an answer right away, or even one at all.

“Why would you feel sad or worried?” He asked, genuinely curious. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”

Explaining why he was worried was easy. “I’m worried you’ll get hurt… or killed. Or that one day you’ll leave and just never come back.” He felt depressed even thinking about what there was to be worried about, their occupation was not at all safe, and Lavi had the added burden of being a Bookman in training.

“Im sad because…” He wasn’t sure how to put it in words, or even what exactly it was. When he looked at Lavi, something about him made his heart hurt.

“…because I…” It wasn’t because he was worried, something else was causing the pain. It was more like… loneliness? And longing…?

“I want to…” A longing to be closer? A longing to mean something to the other? He had never been able to forget about what Lavi had said that day in the Ark, when he was controlled by his Bookman personality. How he had no friends, they were all just ink on paper to him. While Allen understood that it wasn’t Lavi who had said that, it was still a part of Lavi. And Allen wanted to be more than ink on paper to him…

“I want to be…” But he wanted to mean more to Lavi than just a friend. What he wanted… he didn’t know what he was feeling. It reminded him of how he felt when he thought of Mana, but it was also so different. He loved Mana like a father, but Lavi… oh… oh no.

Allen blushed as he realized what it was he had been feeling. He turned away from Lavi, as if his hands clenched in his lap were suddenly interesting.

I cant… let him know. He realized why he had been feeling so sad when he looked at Lavi. Because he wanted something that he knew he could never have. Not only was Lavi obviously interested in busty women, he was a Bookman, and Allen was pretty sure Bookman did not do relationships. Except he couldn’t tell Lavi that… Lavi was still waiting for an answer. Allen tried to think of something to say, something that would seem believable.

“I want to be more than ink on paper to you.” he whispered. That would work, he figured. It was even true.

WA-PISH! ((Lavi at your service ;) ))

veridiansoulwrites:

ruzuki:

Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.

“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”

“I figured as much.” Lavi laughed and ran a hand through his hair before meeting Allen’s eyes, suddenly serious. “What do you think of when you look at me? If you’re going to answer be completely honest with me.”

Allen was surprised, he hadn’t expected a question like that. He thought about it for a few moments, staring at Lavi thoughtfully as he tried to come up with a good answer.

“I’m not sure how to put it in words…” he said softly. “There isnt really one thought that always goes through my head when I see you. Its mostly feelings, and its kind of hard to explain them. I feel happy, and safe, and relieved and worried… and sad… its a weird mix of stuff like that.“