Lavi:Dare – Page 3

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“Goddammit, Komui!” Lavi cursed under his breath once he saw the mess they had been saddled with. “Why can’t his lazy ass get down here and find his shit himself?” There was no way they’d get this done any time soon. He would be trapped down in this musty basement for days.

“He cant even do paperwork, he would never do this himself…” Allen replied with a sigh, and handed Lavi the list as he entered the room.

“Might as well get started.” he muttered, and pulled a box off of the nearest shelf, coughing as disturbed dust filled the air. “At least it will be obvious which boxes were checked.”

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“Hey, I don’t think that we—” Lavi tried to protest, but Komui expertly shoved them out of his office and slammed the door behind them. He also swore he heard the door’s lock clicking. Lavi sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose in annoyance. Now he and Allen were stuck together for the foreseeable future. Awkward.

He looked over at the other boy, who was still blanching at the ridiculous list Komui had left with them. Even though he was frustrated with being pushed into this situation, Lavi did appreciate the chance to see Allen again – even if the other boy didn’t want to see him.

“Looks like we get to be the lucky suckers for Komui’s whims today. Let’s get this over with.” He didn’t wait for Allen as he started to walk in the direction of the storage rooms.

Allen looked up from the list in time to see Lavi sweep past him, heading towards the stairs. Allen hesitated only a moment before following.

A part of Allen was happy to see Lavi again. He had missed the loud redhead. But he also knew that they did eventually need to talk about what happened on the train, and Lavi would probably take this opportunity to confront him about it, as well as about Allens avoidance of the matter. Allen didnt know how he could explain why he was avoiding Lavi, without letting Lavi know how deep his feelings were. If this was all just a fling for Lavi, Allen was determined to hide his own feelings.

When Allen saw the storage rooms, he groaned.

“This is going to take forever…” He pulled open the heavy door to the first room and glanced inside. It seemed to be an old bedroom converted to storage. There was a bed in the corner, covered in dust, and rows of metal shelves filling the rooms, all filled with unmarked, dusty boxes.

“This really is going to take forever…” he muttered darkly, forgetting about Lavi for the moment as he entertained thoughts of how he could get back at Komui for this.

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Lavi walked to Komui’s office with heavy footsteps. This was so, so awkward. Lenalee had told him that he and Allen were supposed to report to Komui for a mission, but she left out any details of what the mission would be. The redhead knew he should’ve been ecstatic, having the chance to be alone with Allen and talk with him without any interruptions. But now it just felt weird. They hadn’t gotten a chance to talk, and with how well Allen had been avoiding him lately, Lavi had the distinct feeling that Allen didn’t want to talk.

Maybe everything was a mistake. Maybe he shouldn’t have let things go as far as they did with the other Exorcist. But what was done couldn’t be undone. Lavi would just have to deal with it as best he could.

When he reached Komui’s office, he entered the room and found that he was the last one to get there. Allen was already standing near the chief’s desk, looking just as unhappy as he was. At least they both were uncomfortable. That made Lavi feel better – but not much.

“Hey. So what’s the job, boss man,” Lavi said nonchalantly as he sauntered up to the desk. He did his best to not look as upset as he was, and avoided meeting Allen’s gaze.

Komui didn’t seem to notice the tension between the two Exorcists, and handed Allen a few pieces of paper.

“No one else is available, so I need you two to find a few things in the storerooms in the basement. I’m not sure which room they are in, and they wont all be together, so you’ll have to search every room until you find them.”

“A few?” Allen looked at the pages Komui handed him, all filled with various items or chemicals needed.

“It will take a while, that’s why I’m having both of you look. You might not finish today, but find what you can and bring it up before you go to dinner.” Komui said, hurrying towards the door before the two could complain further.

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As Lavi feared, one task from Bookman quickly turned into two, and into three, then into twenty. He spent days on end working through books and manuscripts for that old panda and hadn’t seen Allen, or anyone else for that matter, since the two of them had returned from the mission.

It was nearly four days before he managed to escape the confines of his room. He had searched out Allen, but every time he tried to talk to him, something came up. Either someone interrupted them, or Allen would suddenly have some urgent issue to take care of. Lavi was getting the distinct feeling of being brushed off, but it only made him more determined to get Allen alone and talk with him. They hadn’t discussed what happened on the train and it was driving Lavi insane. The lack of resolution kept him on edge and in a pissy mood. He wanted to talk – to figure out what was going on between them. He wasn’t going to just leave it and never speak of it again.

Worst yet, he was sure that Allen was avoiding him on purpose.

As time wore on, Allen became increasingly nervous about the conversation they were supposed to have. What if he changed his mind? He hadn’t seen Lavi for days when they first got back. The first few times Lavi had approached him, they had been interrupted before they could say anything regarding what had happened. And as the days turned into a week, then more, Allen became more and move convinced that when they finally did talk, Lavi would only explain it hadn’t meant anything special.

So, Allen started avoiding him, and making excuses whenever Lavi managed to corner him alone. He didn’t want to have his fears confirmed. He would rather not know, than to know for sure that Lavi did not love him. But he knew he couldn’t keep this up forever.

So, when Lenalee informed him that he was to report to Komui for a mission with Lavi, he knew there was no way to get out of talking to Lavi this time.

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Together they reported on their mission to Komui, both Lavi and Allen retelling the lack of anything important. The mission hadn’t yielded any results, as the two of them came back empty handed. The most they were able to do was kill a few Akuma, but it wasn’t anything major. Komui took their notes and sent them on their way.

When they slipped out of the office, Lavi gave Allen a long look. He wanted to talk right then, but it was hard to initiate any conversation with his tongue tied in knots. When Allen looked back at him, the redhead could feel the heart he wasn’t supposed to have beating like a drum in his chest. He wanted to figure things out between them. He didn’t like the uncertainty.

Finally, he got the nerve to say something. “Hey, Al. I–”

“There you are!” a voice called out behind them, cutting Lavi off.

When the redhead turned, he sighed. He recognized the voice immediately. “Geez, Gramps! I just got back. What the heck do you want?”

Lavi earned a quick thump on the head. “Don’t sass me,” Bookman said, stern as always. “I have a task for you that needs to be completed quickly. Hurry up now.”

Lavi sighed, glaring at the old man as he walked off, expecting Lavi to follow. He gave Allen an apologetic look. “Sorry about that. Can we talk later?”

“Yea, sure.” Allen said with an awkward smile. He was a bit disappointed, but he knew Lavi had his own work to do. He watched Lavi run after Bookman, and turned towards the cafeteria. He could fill his stomach up for now, and wait for Lavi to be free.

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By the time Allen spoke up, they were practically at the front gates of the Black Order. The sudden question in an otherwise quiet walk shook the redhead out of his thoughts. Adjusting the strap on his bag, he considered the option.

“Yeah, better do it right away,” Lavi said, looking up at the foreboding tower. “If we wait, I’ll just forget about it and then we’ll get in trouble.” He sent a playful smile over at Allen as they kept walking.

Allen nodded, returning Lavi’s smile and following him to Komui’s office. The mission had been relatively smooth, so there wasn’t much to report. Hopefully their meeting with Komui would go by quickly. Then Allen could eat. And talk to Lavi.

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They made it off the train with time to spare and headed on the road leading to the Order. The walk back wasn’t terribly long, but the quiet that stretched between Lavi and Allen was starting to get to the redhead. He didn’t know what to say as they traveled along the dirt road. The only thing he wanted to talk about was what had just occurred in the train compartment, but discussing the intricacies of their new romantic entanglement wasn’t something Lavi wanted to chat about on the tail end of their trip. No, they needed to find somewhere quiet and discuss what was going to happen next at length.

Lavi glanced at Allen whenever he thought the other Exorcist wasn’t looking. He wasn’t sure what would happen now. Everything was so complicated, especially with his title as a future bookman. This wasn’t something he should be messing with in the first place. Emotions had no place in a Bookman’s life. But, there was no taking it back now. He would just have to deal with everything as it happened.

Allen felt that the silence as they walked was a bit awkward, but the idea of forcing even a normal conversation would make it worse. He glanced at Lavi a few times, and once even thought he caught Lavi’s eyes darting away from him, until they reached the Order.

“So… Want to report to Komui first and get that out of the way?” Allen asked, hoping no one else noticed the odd tension around the two. Or if they did, they would assume that they just had a petty fight during their mission.

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Lavi kissed Allen again, just a peck on the lips this time around. “Ok. Good,” he said, half-heartedly letting go of Allen. They needed to disembark, and as much as Lavi wanted to stay right there with Allen, they both had to get moving. They were expected back at the Order shortly.

Allen waited for Lavi to collect his belongings before opening the door again. He felt much more hopeful, Lavi wouldn’t have kissed him like that if he was planning on telling Allen that what happened here didn’t mean anything, right?

So, he just had to wait until they reported to Komui, then they should be able to talk.

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Lavi took his time, letting the kiss linger for as long as he could draw it out. But he felt the train slow to a stop and knew they had to gather their belongings and disembark before the train left the station once more. Though, the thought of being confined with Allen again for a long period of time did sound appealing.

Pulling away, Lavi stared down at the younger Exorcist. His heart was beating so hard in his chest that he worried it might burst right through his ribcage and onto the floor. “Allen, I want—” He cut himself off from finishing the sentence, even though the words burned on his tongue—desperate to get out. I want you. He thought those three words over and over again. He wanted Allen so bad, wanted this to be more than just a one-time thing. Lavi wasn’t allowed to have a heart. He could never forget that. But maybe if… maybe if he gave his heart to Allen, the other boy could keep it safe for him.

“We should talk when we get back,” Lavi finally said, still pressing himself close to Allen. His hands lingered on Allen’s hips and his eye was still focused on the younger boy.

Allen leaned heavily against the compartment door as Lavi pulled away. He opened his eyes to meet Lavi’s, his body very aware of Lavi leaning into him, and hands holding his waist. Allen stayed quiet as Lavi struggled for words, and Allens hope grew stronger. Maybe Lavi did want to be with him…

“Yea, we should.” Allen agreed, a small, but real smile on his lips.

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Allen was so quick to gather his things, and the train was only just pulling into the station. It felt rushed. Lavi wanted more time. As soon as they left this train, they’d be back at the Order and life was supposed to resume per the usual – more fighting in this seemingly endless war.

“Wait,” Lavi said, before he could think to keep his mouth shut. He was digging this pit in his heart deeper with each moment around Allen, but at this point, he doubted he could stop. Standing up and forgetting his luggage, he grabbed the door and closed it again. This was their space – it was safe, as if being in the small train compartment kept the war away from them for a brief precious moment.

Lavi stared at Allen, hand still on the door. Unable to articulate the swirl of forbidden feelings raging in his heart, he leaned down and kissed Allen again. It was long, gentle. He wanted the younger Exorcist to feel what he felt, even if just for a second. There was no other way to explain it. For all the books he had read and all the knowledge he possessed, Lavi was useless when it came to his own heart.

Allen froze when he heard Lavi speak from behind him. As Lavi pushed the door shut again, Allen stood still, not sure if he should be feeling hope or dread. Was Lavi going to tell him to pretend this didn’t happen? Or was he… Lavi gave him little time to think, and next thing Allen knew, Lavi was kissing him.

Allen turned to face him properly, and clutched the front of Lavi’s jacket, pulling him closer as he returned the kiss. This felt much different than the kisses they had shared before, more slow and gentle, and it made Allen’s heart ache. Was Lavi trying to tell him something? To show that he did care? Allen wasn’t sure, but for now he would be content with Lavi kissing him against the compartment door.