Man my mind is just filled with nightmare scenarios about Kanda’s near future.
Like, it’s a given that he’s gonna fight Neah-as-Allen at some point, and I don’t think that’s a fight he can win.
I’m thinking that maybe, for the sake of beautiful narrative symmetry, Kanda might try to pull the reverse of what happened during Almageddon and let himself be mortally wounded in an attempt to break through to Allen.
(He’s losing the fight and knows it–his regenerative abilities are burned out. He’s slowing down. He has no illusions of survival anyways, or winning by force, and if it worked on his own stubborn ass, maybe it’ll do the job for Allen. He never wanted to kill him anyways–not really.)
This could go a number of ways. None of them are good.
Apart from the inner fight, Kanda’s past revealing, Allen’s Noah transformation and this scene…
…it has great aftereffect. Kanda finally lets go of Alma and his guilt. But the guilt he felt for Allen brought him back. And that wasn’t the only effect. It’s visible right when he returns, just before Zhu dies, just in time to learn the truth.
Kanda should have got angry. Here he was the person who was responsible for his and Alma’s suffering. If Zhu told him this before Alma’s return, there’s a chance that Kanda would have killed him and a lot more people linked to the case.
But he didn’t. Because Kanda learned something important from Allen.
Kanda learned to forgive. He forgave Alma, the 6th Lab members, Bak, Fou and everyone who showed remorse for what he was put through in the Second Exorcist Project. Up until now he was the one who always got sacrificed. But now, that Allen risked his everything to save Kanda, he finally understood how those people felt. He wasn’t just a poor copy of his previous self, he was a life Allen saw worthy of saving.
Kanda always waits till the last goddamn fucking minute to say “I love you, snap out of it”.
Kanda said he didn’t tell the Order about this incident because he hates the Order above all–but I suspect he also worried what the Order might do to Allen if they knew.
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