Author: codemageddon

So Ive been like, unconsiously avoiding going to bed ever since I got home from LA yesterday, or at least until Ive been drop dead exhausted. (took till ~6am yesterday to reach the point that I even laid down, I wake up to get ready for work at 7:20am)

I only just realized its because Im desperately distracting myself from dwelling on toxic stuff for more than the small controlled doses of dwelling involved while trying to deal with or address things.

Like, I dwell like crazy when I lay down, and Ive been finding the biggest things I can to distract myself all day.

Its past midnight and Im almost past the point of even being tired, I just have a migraine again.

(Side note: my lack of sleep and probably how I messed up my meds from this weekend trip are now resulting in my boss trying to fire me again because I couldnt keep a handle on certain adhd behaviors. Minor ones. Because I had one bad day after months of doing well. Fun. I had thought about calling in sick but I decided to not because it would leave the office really short handed. Ill really will just do it next time I mess my meds up, me being sick causes less boss drama than one mildly bad day caused…)

thesnadger:

So since, if all goes well, I’ll get my copy of the Journal sometime tomorrow (knock wood, fingers crossed!) I’m making a counter right now. While I read it I’m going to just keep tally of the times I say the following sentences:

  • Hmm. I’m just gonna pretend that’s not canon
  • Ford what the fuck, Ford stahp
  • Someone save Fiddleford McGucket
  • Ford I love you but I’m going to have to fight you
  • BILL YOU GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW
  • Ford bby no, shhh, shhh, it’s okay 
  • (Thinking about Stan reading this page when he gets the journal) (tears pouring down face) I’m fine. This is fine.
  • HOLY SHIT, DID I JUST READ THAT WITH MY EYES??

Will report on the results later.

You should just periscope reading it or something XD
Like dont show the pages, but just so you can make these sentences and people can wonder what is going on

I wonder what the Gravity Falls fandom thinks when they go through the history of this blog and see all my DGM rping like omg its kind of embarrassing but at the same time I aint even mad, like thats who I am and what I do here guys. I ship people and sometimes write about it.

I feel a real obligation make a more serious effort on finishing the latest chapter of my GF fanfic too. I do have it like half done XD

*Sees all the messages on Tumblr, Twitter, Discord, etc*

Yeaaaaa I love yall and love getting messages but Im gonna procrastinate for at least like, a day, sorry. There is a lot of stuff, I do not have enough PP left to deal with such a daunting task as trying to read and reply to everything XD

I am also like dead exhausted and only got an hour of sleep because my brain would not shut off and am only upright and on a computer at all because work demands it so Im looking at this on the side of making attempts to even remember what I had been in the progress of doing last week at work.