After he sent the text, Allen let his eyes fall closed, making no attempt to get up to go under the covers. He felt exhausted, probably a combination of the pain, blood loss, and stress. Even so, he really did wish he could have gone to his party tonight. Hanging out with his friends always made him forget about the bad things for a while.
His phone chimed a few minutes later, startling him out of the daze he had fallen into. He unlocked it to read the text and smiled. Typical Lavi, wanting to find some way to still celebrate, even if it involved soup instead of cake… But he doubted Kanda would be disappointed if it were cancelled.
For a few moments, Allen wondered what his friends reactions would be if they saw him like this. Even Kanda might worry… He knew they would do anything they could to help, and Allen desperately wanted it. But wouldn’t it be selfish to use his friends to help him get out of his own problem…? They have their own lives and problems… I cant make them deal with mine too.
To Lavi:
Its ok, I just need to rest a bit. Sorry for cancelling when everyone was looking forward to it. You guys could just hang out without me, I dont mind.
Hopefully Lavi would decide he wasn’t sick enough to worry about. Back when they were both in high school, he had a bad habit of sneaking through his window at the most random times to visit him, and would come check on him whenever he was absent ‘sick’ for a day. It really was a miracle his foster family never caught the two of them… Allen had thought it was sweet, though, even though it meant he always had to make sure he hid any injuries even when he was at home.
Lavi had stopped the surprise visits once he had graduated, and for a while Allen had missed them. Now he was glad Lavi had stopped, it meant he could lie here and sleep without worrying about covering the slashes up somehow…
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