Allen was completely off-guard. He yelped and jumped away from Lavi, rubbing his stinging backside.
“Ow! Lavi, what the bloody hell?”
“You don’t seem convinced Allen, and to be honest neither am I. Care to tell me what’s really got you feeling like that?” He smiled calmly, hoping the other would feel comfortable with his silent encouragement. “I know you better than to believe those trained expressions that I can mirror.”
He really should have known Lavi would notice that he was hiding something. Allen’s masks were good enough to fool most people, but they weren’t perfect. Lavi, with his photographic memory, probably had been able to spot the small differences. A part of him was happy that Lavi could tell, but he was also scared. It would be hard to hide anything from Lavi… And Allen didn’t think it would end well if Lavi learned of his feelings. At best, he would pretend nothing changed, but at worse he might distance himself form Allen…
Even if Lavi could tell when his expressions were fake, as long as fake could hide what he really felt, it would be good enough.
“Well… this is all rather sudden. And its hard to put words to feelings. I rarely have to think about why I felt certain ways.” he said in a lighthearted tone, keeping a grin on his face. It was all still true, and he hoped Lavi would just accept it. But he knew Lavi was nothing if not curious, a part of his job was to pry information from people, after all…
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